As time goes on you will begin to feel more comfortable with the device. It is normal to be nervous with it at first.
But also remember that you put yourself in this position. Your career is on the backburner for a year due to your actions. Take this time to learn from it and come back even stronger.
But also remember that you put yourself in this position. Your career is on the backburner for a year due to your actions. Take this time to learn from it and come back even stronger.